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Just letting my few friends here know that I'll be offline starting tomorrow.  I will be back as soon as possible, but it's looking like 2 weeks to a month, and possibly more, that I'll be gone.  I'm going to miss reading fics, and miss my Twitter, and miss everything.  And I'll miss you guys, too. 

Love you guys.

Just a warning that I'm about to lose Internet because I can't afford to pay the bill right now.  I lost cable this morning, and usually the Internet gets shut off a few days after that.  So I'll be disappearing from LJ and Twitter and everything else for at least a month, hopefully not much longer than that.  What am I gonna do without LJ and Twitter?  *sobs*

The thing that upsets me most is that I won't be able to watch "JONAS" tomorrow night.  I've been waiting for this for so long!  I can't believe I'm going to miss it!  And not just the first episode, but all of them until I can pay the cable bill again.  It's just not fair.

Oh well.  Love the few LJ friends I have, and don't forget me while I'm gone, guys.  I will miss reading fics and Tweeting most of all.

Wow, I am so depressed tonight.  I've had the house to myself for over a week, and I don't now because my husband returned from a trip to see his family.  I was kind of expecting/hoping/dreaming that things would be different when he came home, but they're not.  He's still in love with someone else, and he's still planning to move out of state, and I still have nowhere to live at the end of this month and no one special in my life.  And then the pics I'd been waiting for all day showed up online, and they were great except that Camilla Belle was with Joe.  Why should I care?  I don't know these people, I've never talked to Joe in my life and probably never will.  But seeing him with her, a woman that for some reason I just can't bring myself to like (and it's not because she's Joe's girlfriend, it really isn't, it's just HER), somehow made this night even worse.  I'm just so tired of the uncertainty in my life, of being afraid of my future because I don't know what it is, and of the only real joy in my life being due to three guys half my age who don't even know I exist.  Normally I'm an optimistic person, one who is happy to be alive every single day, who never forgets how blessed and lucky I am.  But lately that person isn't me, and I just don't know how to cope.

So yeah.  That's my night.  I think I'm gonna go find some fic to read in order to forget that I have to go back to work tomorrow.

It has been a long time since I've really been inspired enough to write.  I started that JB fic months ago, but then it fizzled for me.  I tried again last night, and I felt the magic again.  I also started that other JB idea, where Kevin and Joe meet online, but I'm not too happy with it.  I might have to scrap it and start over.  But I just finished two more chapters of the original JB fic (my first JB ever!), and I really like it.  I'm finally in that special place in my head where the words just flow.  It's such a great feeling!  So now there are six chapters, and I've decided that I am definitely going to post it at some point.  Probably after it's completed.

Speaking of which, I think you offered to read it for me, zxully ?  I usually don't use betas because I'm a wuss, but this time I really want to know if it's something that other people would want to read.  And I want an honest opinion, so if it's no good, I want to know before I go showing it to strangers!  Especially since it's my first time posting in this fandom and I just don't know what to expect.

So if you're still interested, let me know and I'll send you the first three chapters (because they kind of go in threes).  Do you have Microsoft Word on your computer?  Probably, I think everyone does. 

And now it's time to take a break from the computer for a while.  I missed both "Reaper" and "Dancing With the Stars" (which I was only watching because Demi's performing), I can't believe it!  See what happens when the words flow? 

So all this Jonas love is inspiring me, and I actually wrote another chapter of my JB fic.  I don't know when/if I'll ever post it.  This is a different kind of fandom than I've ever been part of, and I'm not sure how it would be received.  Of course the slash/incest part would be accepted, there's no problem there, but there's quite a bit of...how do I put it...inner struggle relating to Christian beliefs, and how the boys cope with being gay and Christian at the same time.  I don't want people to think I'm preaching, you know?  So I don't know, for now it's shelved (at least to the public), but I will probably work on it more.

I also had an idea for what I think would be a fun fic to write, where Joe and Kevin meet online and end up becoming very close--without either of them realizing he's talking to his brother.  Does that make sense?  In other words, they fall in love with each other, but Joe doesn't know it's Kevin, and Kevin doesn't know it's Joe.  What do you think, is that something people would want to read?  I think it would be full of silly humor, which is always fun.

Also, let me recommend this fic that has me rolling.  I love it so much!  If you're in the mood to laugh, go read it.  You'll pity Joe and laugh at him, all at the same time!  It's hilarious.  And don't worry, there's plenty of Kevin and Nick involved, too.  It's called "What a Catch, Donnie" and it's by duck_revolution .  Read it here at community.livejournal.com/jonasslash/443647.html .  There are two chapters up so far.

Joe's eyebrows kill me! 


*dead on the floor from sexy overload*

( Amazing JB pics )
OMG, I can't get enough of these adorably silly boys.  I just watched a snippet of "JONAS" on FFE, and I can't stop grinning.  I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!  I can't wait until the show comes out!  I wanted to save the clip and embed it here, but of course it's Disney, so...we know how proprietary they are.  But I laughed my ass off and if you are a member of FFE and haven't seen it yet, RUN!  Do not walk.  My favorite line is from Kevin: "These floors aren't scrubbing themselves, Mister!"  He does prissy so well!

And I also downloaded some pics that had me speechless for a few minutes (see above).  How can they be so beautiful?  I don't know if I'm supposed to be posting these, but since we are able to save them, I'm assuming it's fine to post them elsewhere.  I got them, of course, from www.fanfamilyexperience.com .

Also, I've decided that "Hollywood" is my new favorite JB song.  I can listen to that song over and over and over and each time I love it more.  Of course, my previous favorite "Tonight" is incredible, too.  I guess there doesn't have to be a favorite.

Yay!  I originally started this LJ just for my Jonas Brothers obsession, but I joined a few Harry Potter communities as well, and so now there's a need for HP icons, too.  I found some awesome ones today (*points to Severus*), and it's inspired me to make a few of my own as well.  My OTP is still and probably always will be Snape/Harry, so I might get ambitious and do something with that.

It's a quiet Sunday.  I'm on vacation, so I'm relaxed and doing pretty much nothing.  Yay for me! 

Kellie

Age: 35
Location:  Southern California.
School/Work: Work in a drugstore.
Top 5 Celeb Crushes/Obsessions: Tom Welling, Joe Jonas, Kevin Jonas, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez. 
Top 5 TV Shows: Smallville, Supernatural, Spongebob Squarepants, Wizards of Waverly Place, Jeopardy!
Top 5 TV Musical Acts: Jonas Brothers, Extreme, Live, Demi Lovato, Duran Duran 
Top 5 Things You Waste Time Doing on the Internet: Memes, reading fics, FFE, playing games, crossword puzzles. 
Top 5 Pet Peeves: Poor spelling/grammar (esp. in published books), ungrateful people, stupid people, cat hair on my clothes, running late. 
Top 5 Random Things that Make You Happy:  Joe's smile, Tom's smile, JB songs, a compliment, a day off from work. 

YOUR JOURNAL
Access: Friends only or public?  Public. 
Most popular posted about topics:  JB. 
Most irritating thing about your journal/updates:  They're so sporadic, and I tend to ramble. 

Make a last first impression:

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.--Albus Dumbledore.


spring! friending meme

This was snagged from peachchild336 .

One of my interests is astrology, but only as it relates to personality types.  I used to be really into it, creating natal charts for people and an entire personality analysis, and actually charged money for it!  But now I just read fun stuff like this.

This is taken from www.astrocrack.com/2009/03/astrological-dissection-of-jonas-brothers/ .
 

 

( Astrology & The Jonas Brothers )

I really hope the cut-tag works this time.


Snagged from zxully .


( What fun! )

I'm having way too much fun.

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This goes out to all...what, two?...of my friends.  I signed up for the JB Fan Family Experience site, and it's actually a pretty cool thing.  It opened last Saturday, and I know it's directly related to the boys because Kevin couldn't stop talking about it during their recent live chat.  It's basically a huge JB community, but it's set up in a way you can connect with other JB fans with similar interests or fans that live near you or just...well, all kinds of stuff.  I know that there will be events set up, like meet & greets and special perks for members when JB comes to your town.  I'll spend more time perusing it later, but so far I like it and I want you guys to join me there!  Be my friends, guys!  If nothing else, it's something to do when you're bored.

If you're interested at all, leave me your email address here in my SCREENED comments so that I can send you an invite.  Come on, it'll be fun, right?  I need people, people!  lol

ETA:  I'm sorry for the huge post, I SWEAR I used an LJ-cut but lately that has not been working for me!  What am I doing wrong?  Forgive me, guys.


I found a bunch (ha, get it? bunch?) of flower quizzes and decided to share them. Yeah.  I threw in a couple of other ones, too.

( Flowers and me... )

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming. Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance. At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower. And at other times, you are wise like an iris. And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

You Are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment. Your vibe: intense and intriguing Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful

Your Iris Says You're Very Spiritual

You are incredibly hopeful and courageous. Even when you've been challenged in life, you have faith that everything will work out. Your feelings run deep, and you are a very grateful person. You are very effected by the world around you. You are thankful for the life you lead.

What Kind of Reader Are You? Your Result: Dedicated Reader   You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Literate Good Citizen
Book Snob
Fad Reader
Non-Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

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I spent half of my day off cleaning my bedroom, sorting through all my clothes (ended up with 3 trash bags full of old clothes I no longer want or need), and finding a bunch of stuff (mostly books, no surprise) for the garage sale my Bible Study group is having next month.  I feel like I actually DID something today, and it's a nice feeling.  I also cleaned up the kitchen, but I do that all the time, so...yeah.

I have now put almost every JB song I could find onto CD.  I love their music, I just do!  My favorites after bombarding my ears with them almost non-stop for two weeks are:

"Tonight" (the best song ever lol)
"Please Be Mine"
"Hold On"
"Can't Have You"
"Hollywood"
"Inseparable"
"6 Minutes"
"Shelf"
"That's Just the Way We Roll"
"S.O.S."

I can't get enough of those songs.  I really like most of the rest of their songs, too.  There are only...three?...that I find myself skipping over at times:

"One Man Show"
"Time For Me to Fly"
"One Day at a Time"

So that's the state of my mind right now.  Exciting stuff, isn't it?  :-/

So I bought a book at Toys R' Us the other day, an "unauthorized" biography of the Jonas Brothers.  I read it in about 2 hours, and I enjoyed learning more about the boys and their family.  Unfortunately, it also opened my eyes to things I was unaware of, which means I have to rewrite some of my fic.  I was kind of guessing on some things, like their songwriting process and how they got their start, and now that I know the truth I can't write it otherwise.  It's funny because this is fiction, so it shouldn't matter, but to me it does.  I want to be as accurate as I can, except for the obviously fictional relationship between the brothers.  I'll have to spend some time on that later.

Otherwise, I've just been working.  It's tough now because we have even less help than before, and the customers keep complaining about how long the lines are.  They're right to complain.  It just sucks.  And our DM was in yesterday and ragged on everything, saying we should have more things done (but with less people--riiiiiiiight).  It's so ridiculous. 

Not having any luck finding a part-time job, either.  With my husband out of work, I need to find something!  I keep telling myself that God will provide, but it's hard to keep from worrying as January flies by.

I can't stop listening to JB!  Their songs are infectious and addicting, and did I mention uplifting?  Thank God for giving those boys such talent and appeal.

Not really.  I work all weekend, so it's not really Friday for me.  Then again, I'm just grateful to have a job, so...

Last night sucked.  We had an earthquake, which is pretty much my biggest fear.  You'd think I'd be used to them, living all but 3 years of my life in California, but can one ever get used to the ground shaking without prior warning?  So this earthquake was smaller than most, only 4.5, but the epicenter was closer to me than ever before, about 20 miles away, so it felt pretty strong.  Nothing fell or broke this time, that was nice.  I was in a dead sleep, though, and it woke me up fast.  Ugh, I hate earthquakes.  HATE them.

Today was a good day, though.  Worked all day, but I actually got WORK done instead of just cashiering all day, so that's a good day.  I walk past the magazine rack at least five times every day, and each time I glance over and can't help but smile when I catch Joe looking at me.  Yes, it's a picture, but still the sight of Joe Jonas lifts my mood every single time.  And now I'm starting to learn more about Kevin and Nick and they make me smile, too. 

It's the little things, people.

I actually started writing again.  *gasp*  Inspired by some Jonas slash fics I've been reading, I spent two hours today getting reacquainted with Microsoft Word.  We'll see how I feel about it tomorrow when I re-read what I've written so far.  I'll either continue it or delete it. 

Just look at that beautiful face in my icon.  How can you resist it?

Saying goodbye to 2008 is the best way to start my new LJ, right?  This is stolen from zxully  who is also my first LJ buddy!  *waves*


( 2008 Meme )