nowayjohntaylor

Going AWOL.

2009-05-10T02:51:48Z

Just letting my few friends here know that I'll be offline starting tomorrow. I will be back as soon as possible, but it's looking like 2 weeks to a month, and possibly more, that I'll be gone. I'm going to miss reading fics, and miss my Twitter, and miss everything. And I'll miss you guys, too.

Love you guys.

THIS SUCKS.

2009-05-02T03:22:33Z

Just a warning that I'm about to lose Internet because I can't afford to pay the bill right now. I lost cable this morning, and usually the Internet gets shut off a few days after that. So I'll be disappearing from LJ and Twitter and everything else for at least a month, hopefully not much longer than that. What am I gonna do without LJ and Twitter? *sobs*

The thing that upsets me most is that I won't be able to watch "JONAS" tomorrow night. I've been waiting for this for so long! I can't believe I'm going to miss it! And not just the first episode, but all of them until I can pay the cable bill again. It's just not fair.

Oh well. Love the few LJ friends I have, and don't forget me while I'm gone, guys. I will miss reading fics and Tweeting most of all.

This Night Sucks.

2009-04-14T04:16:57Z

Wow, I am so depressed tonight. I've had the house to myself for over a week, and I don't now because my husband returned from a trip to see his family. I was kind of expecting/hoping/dreaming that things would be different when he came home, but they're not. He's still in love with someone else, and he's still planning to move out of state, and I still have nowhere to live at the end of this month and no one special in my life. And then the pics I'd been waiting for all day showed up online, and they were great except that Camilla Belle was with Joe. Why should I care? I don't know these people, I've never talked to Joe in my life and probably never will. But seeing him with her, a woman that for some reason I just can't bring myself to like (and it's not because she's Joe's girlfriend, it really isn't, it's just HER), somehow made this night even worse. I'm just so tired of the uncertainty in my life, of being afraid of my future because I don't know what it is, and of the only real joy in my life being due to three guys half my age who don't even know I exist. Normally I'm an optimistic person, one who is happy to be alive every single day, who never forgets how blessed and lucky I am. But lately that person isn't me, and I just don't know how to cope.

So yeah. That's my night. I think I'm gonna go find some fic to read in order to forget that I have to go back to work tomorrow.

I'm Finally There!

2009-04-08T04:24:21Z

It has been a long time since I've really been inspired enough to write. I started that JB fic months ago, but then it fizzled for me. I tried again last night, and I felt the magic again. I also started that other JB idea, where Kevin and Joe meet online, but I'm not too happy with it. I might have to scrap it and start over. But I just finished two more chapters of the original JB fic (my first JB ever!), and I really like it. I'm finally in that special place in my head where the words just flow. It's such a great feeling! So now there are six chapters, and I've decided that I am definitely going to post it at some point. Probably after it's completed.

Speaking of which, I think you offered to read it for me, zxully ? I usually don't use betas because I'm a wuss, but this time I really want to know if it's something that other people would want to read. And I want an honest opinion, so if it's no good, I want to know before I go showing it to strangers! Especially since it's my first time posting in this fandom and I just don't know what to expect.

So if you're still interested, let me know and I'll send you the first three chapters (because they kind of go in threes). Do you have Microsoft Word on your computer? Probably, I think everyone does.

And now it's time to take a break from the computer for a while. I missed both "Reaper" and "Dancing With the Stars" (which I was only watching because Demi's performing), I can't believe it! See what happens when the words flow?

Inspired!

2009-04-07T03:38:59Z

So all this Jonas love is inspiring me, and I actually wrote another chapter of my JB fic. I don't know when/if I'll ever post it. This is a different kind of fandom than I've ever been part of, and I'm not sure how it would be received. Of course the slash/incest part would be accepted, there's no problem there, but there's quite a bit of...how do I put it...inner struggle relating to Christian beliefs, and how the boys cope with being gay and Christian at the same time. I don't want people to think I'm preaching, you know? So I don't know, for now it's shelved (at least to the public), but I will probably work on it more.

I also had an idea for what I think would be a fun fic to write, where Joe and Kevin meet online and end up becoming very close--without either of them realizing he's talking to his brother. Does that make sense? In other words, they fall in love with each other, but Joe doesn't know it's Kevin, and Kevin doesn't know it's Joe. What do you think, is that something people would want to read? I think it would be full of silly humor, which is always fun.

Also, let me recommend this fic that has me rolling. I love it so much! If you're in the mood to laugh, go read it. You'll pity Joe and laugh at him, all at the same time! It's hilarious. And don't worry, there's plenty of Kevin and Nick involved, too. It's called "What a Catch, Donnie" and it's by duck_revolution . Read it here at community.livejournal.com/jonasslash/443647.html . There are two chapters up so far.

One More Thing.

2009-04-07T01:51:44Z

Joe's eyebrows kill me!

*dead on the floor from sexy overload*

I AM ON SUCH A JONAS HIGH!

2009-04-07T01:44:11Z

OMG, I can't get enough of these adorably silly boys. I just watched a snippet of "JONAS" on FFE, and I can't stop grinning. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! I can't wait until the show comes out! I wanted to save the clip and embed it here, but of course it's Disney, so...we know how proprietary they are. But I laughed my ass off and if you are a member of FFE and haven't seen it yet, RUN! Do not walk. My favorite line is from Kevin: "These floors aren't scrubbing themselves, Mister!" He does prissy so well!

And I also downloaded some pics that had me speechless for a few minutes (see above). How can they be so beautiful? I don't know if I'm supposed to be posting these, but since we are able to save them, I'm assuming it's fine to post them elsewhere. I got them, of course, from www.fanfamilyexperience.com .

Also, I've decided that "Hollywood" is my new favorite JB song. I can listen to that song over and over and over and each time I love it more. Of course, my previous favorite "Tonight" is incredible, too. I guess there doesn't have to be a favorite.

New Icons!

2009-04-06T03:01:10Z

Yay! I originally started this LJ just for my Jonas Brothers obsession, but I joined a few Harry Potter communities as well, and so now there's a need for HP icons, too. I found some awesome ones today (*points to Severus*), and it's inspired me to make a few of my own as well. My OTP is still and probably always will be Snape/Harry, so I might get ambitious and do something with that.

It's a quiet Sunday. I'm on vacation, so I'm relaxed and doing pretty much nothing. Yay for me!

Another Meme.

2009-03-27T03:58:52Z

This one was also snagged from peachchild336 and it's a looooooooong one.

A
- Available: Yes.

- Age: 35.
- Annoyance: Poor spelling/grammar.
- Allergic: Nope.

- Animal: Cats.

- Actor: Tom Welling.

B
- Beer: Nope.

- Birthday/Birthplace: March 8/Santa Ana, CA
- Best Friends: Summer & husband (we are separating, which is why I AM available).

- Body Part on opposite sex: Hair or eyes.

- Best feeling in the world: Finally getting to pee after holding it too long.

- Blind or Deaf: Horrible choice. I don't really know.

- Best weather: Rainy and cool.

- Been in Love: Yes, three times.

- Been bitched out?: Of course.

- Been on stage?: Yes, with school bands.

- Believe in yourself?: I'm working on that.

- Believe in life on other planets: Yes, but not in our solar system at this time. The atmosphere has to be just right. I think Mars had life once.

- Believe in miracles: Yes.

- Believe in Magic: Yes. We call them "miracles."

- Believe in God: Yes.

- Believe in Satan: Yes.

- Believe in Santa: No.

- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Yes.

- Believe in Evolution: Yes.

C
- Car: I've never owned one because I don't drive. Yet.

- Candy: Peanut butter M&M's.

- Colour: All shades of blue.

- Cried in school: Too often.

- Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla.

- Chinese/Mexican: Both, as long as they're not too spicy.

- Cake or pie: CAKE!!!!

- Countries to visit: I've been to Mexico. I want to visit Canada.

D
- Day or Night: Day.

- Dream vehicle: One driven by someone else.

- Danced: Yes, it's fun.

- Dance in the rain?: I have.

- Dance in the middle of the street?: I have, while it was raining.

- Do the splits?: Can't.

E
- Eggs: I LOVE EGGS. (remember Debbie on "The Amanda Show"? I identify with her.)

- Eyes: Blue.

- Everyone has: a choice.

- Ever failed a class?: Yes, English! My senior year. I didn't turn in some essays because my dad had a stroke and it was a bad time. I still ended up with the English medal when I graduated.

F
- First crush: John Taylor of Duran Duran.

- Full name: Kellie Ann.

- First thoughts waking up: "Am I late for work?"

- Food: Eggs, mushrooms, sour cream, cheese.

G
- Greatest Fear: Being alone. I will be facing it next month.

- Giver or taker: Both.

- Goals: Survive on my own, be able to pay rent.

- Gum: Berry and tropical flavors are good.

- Get along with your parents?: I did when they were alive.

- Good luck charms: A silver cross that says "DREAM" on it.

H
- Hair Color: Darkish blond.

- Height: 5'0"

- Happy: I'm trying to be.

- Holidays: Winter.

- How do you want to die: Happy, and believing.

- Health freak?: I need to be.

- Hate: Try not to.

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: Light.

- Hair Colour: Dark.

- Height: Doesn't matter.

- Clothing Style: Comfortable.

- Characteristics: Self-sufficient, but wanting companionship. A big kid who is mature when it counts.

- Ice Cream: Vanilla. Or chocolate peanut butter.

- Instrument: Played clarinaet for 9 years, and piano lessons for 2. Now I just sing (badly).

J
- Jewelry: No piercings. I wear 3 rings every day (high school ring, 15-year anniv. ring from my job, and a cheap but pretty bluish opal ring).

- Job: Work at a drugstore.

K
- Kids: Not yet; maybe it's not meant to be.

- Kickboxing or karate: Both sound exhausting.

- Keep a journal?: Not recently.

L
- Longest Car Ride: Does a bus count? 3-day trip to PA when I was younger. Then 3 days back.

- Love: can be wonderful, and it can suck.

- Letter: K.

- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes.

- Love at first sight: It can happen, but it deepens over time.

M
- Milk flavour: Whole white.

- Movie: Harry Potter movies.

- Mooned anyone?: Just my husband.

- Marriage: For 11 years, and now we are splitting up.

- Motion sickness?: When I play certain video games.

- McD's or BK: McDonalds.

N
- Number of Siblings: Three.

- Number of Piercings: None.

- Number: 24.

O
- Overused Phrases: "That's so cool, dude!" or "No way!"

- One wish: that I figure out what God's plan for me is.

- One phobia: Falling down stairs.

P
- Place you'd like to live: Hollywood, CA. Or Toluca Lake, hehe.

- Pepsi/Coke: Pepsi, preferably diet.

Q
- Quail: They're funny with their "bangs" that hang over their eyes.

- Questionnaires: LOVE THEM!

R
- Reason to cry: being lonely.

- Reality T.V.: if it's not a court show (like "The People's Court" or "Judge Judy"), I can't stand them.

- Radio Station: There's a great Christian one here.

- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Just did.

S
- Song: I can't stop listening to "Hollywood" and "Games" by JB.

- Shoe size: 6 1/2.

- Sushi: I don't eat it.

- Skipped school: Never.

- Slept outside: Only when camping.

- Seen a dead body?: Yes, at a wake.

- Smoked?: Never.

- Skinny dipped?: Never.

- Shower daily?: Usually.

- Sing well?: Not particularly.

- In the shower?: If there's music playing.

- Swear?: Too much probably.

- Stuffed Animals?: They rock.

- Single/Group dates: Both have their advantages.

- Strawberries/Blueberries: Yuck to both.

- Scientists need to invent: a way to prove God's existence to non-believers.

T
- Time for bed: 10-11.

- Thunderstorms: Can be scary.

- Touch your tongue to your nose?: Nope.

U
- Unpredictable: I'm pretty predictable.

- Under the influence?: Never.

- Understanding?: I try to be.

V
- Vegetable you hate: Spinach and brussel sprouts.

- Vegetable you love: Lima beans, green beans, corn.

- Vacation spot: On a bus heading anywhere.

W
- Weakness: Food. Being dependent on others.

- When you grow up: Never gonna happen.

- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: Andi and Jodi.

- Who makes you laugh the most: April at work.

- Worst feeling: like nobody loves you.

- Wanted to be a model?: No.

- Where do we go when we die: Depends on how we live our lives.

- Worst weather: HOT.

- Walk with a book on your head?: Nope.

X
- X-Rays: A few times.

Y
-Year it is now: 2009.

-Yellow: Pale yellow is okay.

Z
- Zoo animal: Monkey.

- Zodiac sign: Pisces.

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you?: Husband.
2. Last person to see you cry?: Husband.
3. Went to the movies with you?: Jodi, Kristi, Alexis, and...Michelle?
4. You went to the mall with?: Husband.
5. You went to dinner with?: Husband.
6. You talked to on the phone?: Jessica.
7. Made you laugh?: Elizabeth.

Meme about...ME!

2009-03-27T03:18:29Z

Kellie

Age: 35
Location: Southern California.
School/Work: Work in a drugstore.
Top 5 Celeb Crushes/Obsessions: Tom Welling, Joe Jonas, Kevin Jonas, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez.
Top 5 TV Shows: Smallville, Supernatural, Spongebob Squarepants, Wizards of Waverly Place, Jeopardy!
Top 5 TV Musical Acts: Jonas Brothers, Extreme, Live, Demi Lovato, Duran Duran
Top 5 Things You Waste Time Doing on the Internet: Memes, reading fics, FFE, playing games, crossword puzzles.
Top 5 Pet Peeves: Poor spelling/grammar (esp. in published books), ungrateful people, stupid people, cat hair on my clothes, running late.
Top 5 Random Things that Make You Happy: Joe's smile, Tom's smile, JB songs, a compliment, a day off from work.

YOUR JOURNAL
Access: Friends only or public? Public.
Most popular posted about topics: JB.
Most irritating thing about your journal/updates: They're so sporadic, and I tend to ramble.

Make a last first impression:

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.--Albus Dumbledore.

spring! friending meme

This was snagged from peachchild336 .

I Found This Amusing.

2009-03-11T00:43:46Z

One of my interests is astrology, but only as it relates to personality types. I used to be really into it, creating natal charts for people and an entire personality analysis, and actually charged money for it! But now I just read fun stuff like this.

This is taken from www.astrocrack.com/2009/03/astrological-dissection-of-jonas-brothers/ .

The Virgo Pioneer: Nick Jonas (born September 16, 1992). See, all the success was supposed to be his. He was the one who was quietly crooning all his life and working hard for that solo record contract until the label noted that his two-back up singing brothers have exciting personalities and nice senses of style. But like any congenial Virgo, he didn’t object and continued to thrive within larger working environment. We bet his peaceful Cancer Mars didn’t help matters. He’s also a huge purist and advocate of group’s abstinence from drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes. Because, he has a Taurus Moon (like Kevin), Nick is openly not afraid to preach those beliefs.

The Mysterious Scorpio: Kevin Jonas (born November 5, 1987). Kevin is not just the “old” one, he’s like totally mysterious too. But we have some clues into his dark and exciting personality. His favorite game is Monopoly so he loves to count group’s earnings. We know that for a fact, since his Jupiter is in power-hungry Aries. His favorite actor is Aquarius James Dean so he’s like a complete rebel, and his favorite sport is badminton which might mean that he secretly wants to live in Indonesia or China where that game is most popular. His Libra Mars makes Kevin the steadiest member of the group and the similar moon and planet positions to Nick means that they get along.

The Leo Scene-stealer: Joe Jonas (born August 15, 1989). We’re not sure just how well he hits those notes or instruments, but he sure knows how to use those hair products and how to attract flashbulbs. But every self-respecting Leo should! He dates famous girls like Taylor Swift (Sagittarius) and Camilla Belle (Libra) and has the largest number of fan e-mails because of it. Joe can’t help it. He loves to groom himself and massage his own vanity meter. His Aquarius moon makes all his efforts very worthy, but the rest of his chart (like Mercury, Venus, and Mars) all lies in Virgo making Joe a self-loving and conservative perfectionist. This fact might also strain a relationship with his brothers in the near future.

3 Things Meme. Yay!

2009-02-10T04:52:28Z

I really hope the cut-tag works this time.

Snagged from zxully .

THREE WAYS I AM STILL JUST A KID:
1. I watch Nickelodeon and Disney Channel almost constantly. (Spongebob is a favorite).
2. I obsess over Jonas Brothers the way I did over Duran Duran when I was a kid.
3. Holidays excite me way too much.

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:
1. I had never heard 99% of the songs/albums/groups nominated for awards last year or this year.
2. I'm worried I might be too old to get pregnant.
3. I say things like "Man, when I was a kid, I would never have gotten away with that!"

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY":
1. I don't wear make-up and take about 10 minutes to get dressed and ready to leave the house.
2. I'm proud when I manage an especially loud burp.
3. I must be in control of the TV remote control.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL":
1. Even after 12 years of dedicated study, I am not able to understand the rules of football and get lost during a game (though I do fine with most other sports).
2. I can't stand to watch boxing--WHY do they have to hit each other? It's so brutal.
3. A sensitive, pretty man turns me to mush.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kel.
2. Huney (yes, spelled that way).
3. "Excuse me, do you work here?"

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My ability to spell extremely well and to notice tiny details.
2. I'm usually a very realistic person. (stealing that one from zxully</lj> )
3. I tend to get along with almost everyone.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My imagination runs wild and always suspects the absolute worst.
2. I'm way too jealous (that kind of connects with the previous answer).
3. I'm very much overweight (working on that, though! Lost 4 lbs, go me!).

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Losing the people I care about/being alone in life.
2. Earthquakes.
3. The unknown.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Diet Pepsi.
2. A book to read.
3. Right now, hearing at least one JB song per day.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given)
1. Friendship.
2. Loyalty/commitment..
3. A lot of laughter.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (OR SAME.. WAHTEVER YOU LIKE) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Full lips.
2. Thick eyebrows.
3. Dark hair with light eyes.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Eat cooked spinach (I truly puke when I try).
2. Stop being a Christian.
3. Like Camilla Belle. I've tried, I really have.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Pig out on cake.
2. Pay off all my bills.
3. Talk to my mom (miss you, Mom)..

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Have a child.
2. Be a healthy weight, just to know what it feels like.
3. Learn to write and/or speak Latin.

Another Test

2009-02-10T03:33:21Z

I'm having way too much fun.

Test

2009-02-10T03:27:01Z

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Fan Family Experience

2009-01-27T00:58:34Z

This goes out to all...what, two?...of my friends. I signed up for the JB Fan Family Experience site, and it's actually a pretty cool thing. It opened last Saturday, and I know it's directly related to the boys because Kevin couldn't stop talking about it during their recent live chat. It's basically a huge JB community, but it's set up in a way you can connect with other JB fans with similar interests or fans that live near you or just...well, all kinds of stuff. I know that there will be events set up, like meet & greets and special perks for members when JB comes to your town. I'll spend more time perusing it later, but so far I like it and I want you guys to join me there! Be my friends, guys! If nothing else, it's something to do when you're bored.

If you're interested at all, leave me your email address here in my SCREENED comments so that I can send you an invite. Come on, it'll be fun, right? I need people, people! lol

Quizzes & JB (two of my favorite things)

2009-01-26T06:24:52Z

ETA: I'm sorry for the huge post, I SWEAR I used an LJ-cut but lately that has not been working for me! What am I doing wrong? Forgive me, guys.

I found a bunch (ha, get it? bunch?) of flower quizzes and decided to share them. Yeah. I threw in a couple of other ones, too.

Your Love is Represented by a White Rose

While you may or may not be totally naive, you do approach love with an eternal innocence.

You love like you've never been hurt. And you put all your faith in your partner.

Your philosophy on love is: be honest and be yourself.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.

Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.

At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.

And at other times, you are wise like an iris.

And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.

People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.

You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.

Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You Are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment.

Your vibe: intense and intriguing

Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful

What Color Rose Are You?

Your Iris Says You're Very Spiritual

You are incredibly hopeful and courageous.

Even when you've been challenged in life, you have faith that everything will work out.

Your feelings run deep, and you are a very grateful person.

You are very effected by the world around you. You are thankful for the life you lead.

What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

What Kind of Reader Are You? Your Result: Dedicated Reader You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Literate Good Citizen
Book Snob
Fad Reader
Non-Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I spent half of my day off cleaning my bedroom, sorting through all my clothes (ended up with 3 trash bags full of old clothes I no longer want or need), and finding a bunch of stuff (mostly books, no surprise) for the garage sale my Bible Study group is having next month. I feel like I actually DID something today, and it's a nice feeling. I also cleaned up the kitchen, but I do that all the time, so...yeah.

I have now put almost every JB song I could find onto CD. I love their music, I just do! My favorites after bombarding my ears with them almost non-stop for two weeks are:

"Tonight" (the best song ever lol)
"Please Be Mine"
"Hold On"
"Can't Have You"
"Hollywood"
"Inseparable"
"6 Minutes"
"Shelf"
"That's Just the Way We Roll"
"S.O.S."

I can't get enough of those songs. I really like most of the rest of their songs, too. There are only...three?...that I find myself skipping over at times:

"One Man Show"
"Time For Me to Fly"
"One Day at a Time"

So that's the state of my mind right now. Exciting stuff, isn't it? :-/

More RL Ramblings (and a little JB)

2009-01-15T00:40:12Z

So I bought a book at Toys R' Us the other day, an "unauthorized" biography of the Jonas Brothers. I read it in about 2 hours, and I enjoyed learning more about the boys and their family. Unfortunately, it also opened my eyes to things I was unaware of, which means I have to rewrite some of my fic. I was kind of guessing on some things, like their songwriting process and how they got their start, and now that I know the truth I can't write it otherwise. It's funny because this is fiction, so it shouldn't matter, but to me it does. I want to be as accurate as I can, except for the obviously fictional relationship between the brothers. I'll have to spend some time on that later.

Otherwise, I've just been working. It's tough now because we have even less help than before, and the customers keep complaining about how long the lines are. They're right to complain. It just sucks. And our DM was in yesterday and ragged on everything, saying we should have more things done (but with less people--riiiiiiiight). It's so ridiculous.

Not having any luck finding a part-time job, either. With my husband out of work, I need to find something! I keep telling myself that God will provide, but it's hard to keep from worrying as January flies by.

I can't stop listening to JB! Their songs are infectious and addicting, and did I mention uplifting? Thank God for giving those boys such talent and appeal.

I'm so freaking dramatic, somebody slap me.

2009-01-11T03:17:44Z

Caution: Ranting and whining ahead, turn back now if you must.

Work was okay today. We were extremely busy, as usual, but I only spent the last 3 hours on the register, so it wasn't too bad. Tomorrow's going to be hell, though--just me and a manager until 10:30 A.M. Do you know how busy we are on the weekends? Even on Sunday morning? It's not going to be pretty. Thank God I'm off on Monday.

I had a really, really insanely frustrating customer at one point. It took literally three of us to ring her out properly, because she kept pressing the wrong button on the damn EFT device. She kept pressing the "food stamps" key and the other cashier (along with a supervisor) couldn't figure out why the sale wouldn't go through. So finally they called in the Big Guns (namely ME) to take over and I made it work, but by then the customer was angry and blaming us and blah blah blah, so after she left I decided it was time for a break before I killed someone. I needed something to make me smile, so I headed back to the magazine rack and picked up Pop Star. By the time I stood in line and paid for that, my break was half over, but all I really needed was a few moments of quiet with JB, right? *rolls eyes at self--I swear, I'm 12 sometimes*

So I get into the breakroom, open the magazine, and my mood dips even more. Inside is a spread of pics from the JB family vacation in Mexico, and she's there. Her. *growls* I don't know what it is, but I don't like Camilla Belle. At all. I'd like to tear her eyes out. It isn't because she's dating Joe, either; I want him to be happy in love. I mean, I would love it if Nick confirmed that he and Selena are dating, because I heart Selena to pieces. Something about Camilla, though, just...rubs me wrong. Really wrong. I don't know anything about her. I have no reason to dislike her. But I do. Deeply. I just don't like seeing her with Joe. In the (very) few pics I've seen of them together, he's never smiling. He doesn't even seem to be looking at her. I don't know, I just...ugh. She makes me cringe.

The mood stayed with me even after I got home, through the cooking of dinner, and it's still here now. I had planned to work more on my wannabe JB fic tonight, but the mood just won't let it happen. My excitement is tainted now. Maybe I'll go read something. I don't know.

Sorry for the random whine-filled post. It's where my head is tonight.

TGIF??

2009-01-10T05:56:44Z

Not really. I work all weekend, so it's not really Friday for me. Then again, I'm just grateful to have a job, so...

Last night sucked. We had an earthquake, which is pretty much my biggest fear. You'd think I'd be used to them, living all but 3 years of my life in California, but can one ever get used to the ground shaking without prior warning? So this earthquake was smaller than most, only 4.5, but the epicenter was closer to me than ever before, about 20 miles away, so it felt pretty strong. Nothing fell or broke this time, that was nice. I was in a dead sleep, though, and it woke me up fast. Ugh, I hate earthquakes. HATE them.

Today was a good day, though. Worked all day, but I actually got WORK done instead of just cashiering all day, so that's a good day. I walk past the magazine rack at least five times every day, and each time I glance over and can't help but smile when I catch Joe looking at me. Yes, it's a picture, but still the sight of Joe Jonas lifts my mood every single time. And now I'm starting to learn more about Kevin and Nick and they make me smile, too.

It's the little things, people.

I actually started writing again. *gasp* Inspired by some Jonas slash fics I've been reading, I spent two hours today getting reacquainted with Microsoft Word. We'll see how I feel about it tomorrow when I re-read what I've written so far. I'll either continue it or delete it.

Just look at that beautiful face in my icon. How can you resist it?

My First Post (awwwww)

2009-01-08T08:58:06Z

Saying goodbye to 2008 is the best way to start my new LJ, right? This is stolen from zxully who is also my first LJ buddy! *waves*

1. Was 2008 a good year for you?
Well, any year I survive is one I consider a good year. I didn't lose anyone close to me, and I'm still happily married with a place to live and a job, so yeah--it was good. I've had better, of course. lol

2. What was your favorite moment of the year?
Just one? "One moment in time...." Um...oh! When I got my Internet back after almost a year without it! That was the best feeling, let me tell you! I felt alive again.

3. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
It happened twice; my husband told me he'd lost his job. It never gets any easier to hear that, no matter how used to it you are.

4. What are your plans for 2009?
Become a better Christian. That doesn't mean I'm changing my views on homosexuality--I still do and always will believe that no kind of love is wrong. I plan to spend more time with my Bible, though, and to practice giving my problems to God instead of trying to fix everything myself (which never works, I just end up stressed out).

I also plan to make new friends who are okay with my new interests, but maybe spend less time online. It eats away at my soul! lol

5. What countries did you visit?
Just my own, the U.S.A. I never go anywhere.

6. What date in 2008 will remain etched in your memory?
Strangely enough, September 21st. It's the day Demi Lovato's CD was released, and I bought it and loved it, which in turn led to my Jonas Brothers obsession.

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I made an effort to keep in touch with my brother, which is actually hard for me because I don't like him too much. I love him because he's family, but I don't like him at all. Through him, I keep up on the rest of the family, so it was an achievement for me to reach out because I never used to.

8. What was your biggest failure?
My friendship with my best friend; I let it go, knowing what I was doing, and pushing her away. I miss her, but I needed the space.

9. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Just the normal colds and flus.

10. What was the best thing you bought?
Demi Lovato's CD Don't Forget.

11. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My own, regarding my (former?) best friend. Also, my husband's at times.

12. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, gas for the car, electricity for the apartment, and fast food.

13. What did you get really really really excited about?
Selena Gomez and "Wizards of Waverly Place"

14. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
"Get Back" by Demi Lovato, any songs by the Jonas Brothers, and that horrible country song "What Hurts the Most." Ugh.

15. Compared to this time last year are you:
a) Fatter or thinner? A tad thinner.
b) Happier or sadder? A little of both.
c) Richer or poorer? Poorer in money, richer in spirit.

16. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Praying. Cleaning. Being nice.

17. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressing out, eating, sleeping.

18. How will you be spending Christmas?
I worked for half the day, then we went to my in-laws' home for presents and food. It was a nice, relaxing day.

19. Which LJ/MySpace users did you meet for the first time?
None.

20. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Yes, with celebrities.

21. What was your favourite TV show?
"Smallville," "Supernatural," and "Wizards of Waverly Place"

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I try not to hate. It's a useless emotion. However, I strongly dislike a few people now that I liked before.

23. What was/were the best books you read?
I read at least 5 Eve Dallas mysteries by J.D. Robb, those are always entertaining. I started reading the Twilight books, those are fun. I re-read all my Harry Potter books again, too.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Jonas Brothers and Demi Lovato.

25. What did you want and get?
The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowling. Also, lots of love from my husband.

26. What did you want and not get?
A job for my husband. Some time alone.

27. What was your favourite film this year?
Gosh, we never see new movies anymore. I don't know.

28. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I turned 34. I worked, then we went to Bible Study, where my birthday was celebrated with cake. It was fun.

29. What one thing would have made your year more satisfying?
A job for my husband.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Lazy. I like to be comfortable, and I don't go out much except for work and church, so...just pants and a shirt, I guess.

31. What kept you sane?
Music. God. My husband.

32. Which celebrity did you fancy the most?
Joe Jonas and Selena Gomez. I'd take either one for a night.

33. Which political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage. It was made legal in California, and I rejoiced. Then in November it was made illegal again and I cried. It's just so sad.

34. Who did you miss?
My mom and dad.

35. Did you treat somebody badly in 2008?
Yes.

36. Did somebody treat you badly in 2008?
Not really. I'm pretty well-liked by the people in my life (at least I THINK I am!).

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned this year?
Don't make promises you can't keep. It only hurts those you make the promises to when you don't follow through.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year...
"I'm sorry for breaking all the promises I wasn't around to keep."--"Sorry" by JB